I’ve been thinking a lot recently. There have been so many different things on my mind and it’s difficult to know how to put them into words. I knew that I would feel different once I had been at uni for a semester, but I never realised how different I would feel. Since I’ve been away I’ve had so many different revelations and epiphanies about different people and things in my life and I’ve even learnt some interesting things about myself.
I was browsing the internet earlier and I found this quote and it seemed spookily appropriate:
“You must always remember: you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think”- A. A Milne.
I feel this that proverb is incredibly inspirational and cause me to reflect on these past few months. I was worried before I came to uni that I would not be able to cope with being away from home. I have found it easier than I expected to adapt to a more independent lifestyle. I thought that my feelings of homesickness would be utterly unbearable but I have found these feelings easier to cope with than I first thought. There has also been an unexpected rise in my confidence levels whilst I’ve been away from home and that is something that is invaluable to me. I have never been a confident person but forcing myself to dive in to the deep end has definitely encouraged me to tackle many of the obstacles that have been in my way for years. I have found that there has been a significant drop in my anxiety levels and this is something that I am eternally grateful for. I was incredibly dubious about my university experience as I felt as if people were exaggerating in terms of how life-changing it can be. I felt as if people had hyped up how different things would be that it would never meet my levels of expectations. It is safe to say that it has met and exceeded these expectations in a number of ways.
It has come to the time where I am soon to return back to little ol’ Devon and I have mixed feelings about this. Do not be mistaken, I am itching to go home as it has been almost three months since I set foot in my hometown. However, I can’t help but feel sad about leaving all my new friends and these new surroundings behind. I will even miss walking home and seeing this on the subway.
There is one thing that I have definitely been missing since I have been away and that is my cat. It sounds odd to those who are not pet owners but I have definitely been missing this little thing-
I am feeling incredibly positive today- I could get used to this feeling. I am at a point in my life where I feel that I have overcome so much and yet I still have so many different things to experience. I have always talked about a bucket list but I have never been sure what I would put on it. I think that I might start writing one and hopefully will be able to tick off a few of those things in the new year.
The new year has got me thinking about new year’s resolutions and how they seem impossible to keep. I may start thinking of mine soon. I have usually avoided new year’s resolutions like the plague for a number of reasons:
- I usually forget what they are
- I feel disappointed when I do not achieve them
- I set myself goals throughout the year
I am making the most of this positive mood, hence the long post.
I’ve been working on my university assignments over the past few weeks and have found them both challenging and enjoyable. The feeling of tackling and essentially defeating an assignment is something which is unmatched by any other. I have always believed myself to be an academic person who enjoys writing essays and enjoys learning about different topics. I have this thirst and fascination for things and I would have to say that it is a quality that I like within myself. I am a very curious person and this has been helpful in terms of writing features and pitches for my magazine journalism university course.
I recently wrote a feature about a military family for an assignment and I found researching the Afghanistan war incredibly interesting. The trouble is, I forget that people do not always share my enthusiasm for different and often random subjects. I find myself rambling on about a topic that I have researched or about a theory and I begin to see a friend’s eyes gradually glaze over. Instead, I shall start to bore you all with my ramblings about different things that I have discovered.